Dear, Ray. [2/-]

Today I smelled your scent in the laundry, and once again it reminded me of you, and your hugs. I miss your long hugs. You always hug me really tight you almost squeezed me. You would keep holding me until I have to let go first. It's as if you would never let me go. Your hugs, they always feel safe and strong. But in the end it's you that let go. You left me.
Our last hug was probably our longest hug. In that moment you successfully made me believe that we can hold on til forever. When you know the time is up for us to keep each other. When you know it's about time for you to leave me soon.

Dear, Ray. [1/-]

Yo, hi Ray! How are you? I hope things go well with your coass life. I wish I can hear about the story of your patients or your group mates again haha. Tbh they're always interesting to hear, even though you cant bring it interestingly lol. I dont think I need to tell how am I doing right, you probably dont care anyway. You never did. Or did you?
It's been almost 2 months since our break up. No matter how I tell people that I dont care at all anymore, seems like deep down I still care. A lot. I can't lie to myself that you're still on my mind. It's bad that I can see you almost everywhere. From superhero movies we used to love, to that stupid soya ginger drink we once had. I think that's how human's brain works when you miss someone. Well then, I miss you. Do you miss me too? Or at least do I ever just crossed your mind? You said that you loved me and actually it was heavy for you to leave me. But did you actually mean it? Can you sleep peacefully at night this time then?
I know I shouldn't be missing you. It was a very stupid reason you gave. So much negativity to even think of the reason. Like, really?? Well, until this second I don't know what's going on in your head.
What's the real reason behind this. But I think it's better for me not to know. I'm not ready to be more hurt. To such reason like; you gave up on me. But whatever. You were definitely out of your mind,
and i'm out of my mind for keep missing you. Damn I hate you. I hate your ability to make me feel this way, without even a single glance back. But I hate myself even more, for keep forgiving you.
However, there is one thing you need to know. Now I'm glad that we broke up. I don't need such attitude and negativity brought to my future. God saved me and has better plans for me. I'm still young, or a "little girl" if you call it, my journey is still long, I have nothing to worry about.

Who were once yours,
Moon.